I do not write from an academic position or as a self-proclaimed expert. I write as someone who is living with the loss I can almost not acknowledge. He’s away somewhere. He’s busy. I cannot call him to tell him of any triumphs or how I told one of my managers that I could seeContinue reading “The Autistic Grief Process”
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The Visionary Photographer?
Dear Jill This missive offers a conclusion to your journey , although it is not an end at all. This is a summary and a reflection of how you arrived to the point you are at now. Your compass fluctuates but now you see where each direction leads to and to who. A genre ofContinue reading “The Visionary Photographer?”
Conversation with Myself
Every day there is such an influx of internal dialogue that creates the peaks and troughs in which my emotional state varies. Small victories become unfathomable questions of meaning and lows explore the rationality of existence. Purpose must come into it, so I tell myself that I am good enough, then I castigate the prideContinue reading “Conversation with Myself”
Why Black and White?
Short film about why I use black and white as a filter in the videos. (6.12 mins)
Creative Connections and Conundrums
‘You are all over the place Jill’ I say to myself frustratingly. My ideas on what to write include so many facets which in turn create more and more connections to explore. Sorry, not Sorry. So, I NEED my creative self to speak my words that no one has heard. Otherwise I am unable toContinue reading “Creative Connections and Conundrums”
Moving forward
I want to look at some of the strengths and advantages of the being autistic. I say autistic rather than neurodiverse because that is my lived experience. The term neurodiverse encompasses a wide range of abilities that are different to neurotypical ways of thinking. In the paper by Livingston et al (2019), a study ofContinue reading “Moving forward”
Autistic Burnout
“Have you heard of autistic burnout?” Asks my lovely neighbour over the fence. Her son is autistic and she has known me for 7 years and her late father was my Lockdown buddy last year. I hadn’t heard of it, no, but after the week I’ve had (and it’s only Wednesday) where I’ve not hadContinue reading “Autistic Burnout”
The Autistic Pov
If you’re shut awayAre you hiding or captive?If there are unknown questionsTo demanded answersAre you silent or silenced? The navigation is that whichMust be made, without compass or sign.To not make the journey seems the easier pathAnd the walls can be built.But… If you’re shut awayAre you hiding or captive?If there are unknown questionsTo demandedContinue reading “The Autistic Pov”
A Day in My Life
Processing one day at my university, studying part-time as a mature student who is neurodiverse. Please note that these photographs are intended to display my personal experience, personified through the figure in the photographs. The texts confirm the intention for the viewer. These are not intended as any criticism of anyone or any organisation. IContinue reading “A Day in My Life”
Exploration of Life as a Neurodiverse Creative 